I like to drive in a highway at night.. Listening to songs I used to listen too in past times…

It feels a sweet kind of sadness

That keeps me going

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I daydream of myself as a choreographer of a dance.
I saw a couple of souls twirling; ascending or descending depending on their journey…
Attracting one another, exactly whom they need to deepen their existence and emerge into higher levels of growth and understanding.. As they twirl, I watch their faces as their emotions unfold.. Promises, laughter, lust, joy, sadness.. Broken promises, anger, jealousy, shame.. I see an infinite expression of emotions..
And still they twirl perfectly 
Genuinely and gracefully…
Alone in their togetherness
No mistakes
No one harming the other
No victims, nor are there villains…
Nothing to forgive, nothing to apologize for.

When I feel sad, I don’t suppress it, on the contrary I embrace it, I cry, my heart ache, I set alone, write some shit, listen to sad songs, I completely immerse myself into it for few days.
Then that’s it! I move on, I laugh, dance and enjoy my day… life is too fucking short to let sadness get into my soul…
I’m scared and sad as shit but Ali I must keep on going…
I must not let sadness take me down.. I will keep myself intact… Life is tough… Being sad and depressed will only make it tougher.. I can’t do tougher…

 

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Between making the cappuccinos and the lattes on a rainy day a childhood friend enters the café.. Whom I haven’t seen in ages, I immediately noticed how his aura was glowing with peace! …
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So during a prayer break I went and sat next to him… It felt so strange because we were talking like we met yesterday… ..
He looked at me immediately and
said I left Jeddah for 7 years.. Why?
Running away.. From family and searching for myself
I looked into his deep wise eyes and asked, did you find it?
He smiled.. Yes I did, and then I found God

 

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Why this appetite to shout?
Why this anger and disrespect …
..
There was love my dear
There was a laugh.. A tease and plenty of hugs… Confessions and wishes under a full moon and a deep sea
…
Let’s remind ourselves that we are only visiting for a short period.. No need to shout..

 

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Set alone
Stare at the moon
Stare long enough until you love yourself
And when you do.. You will notice how much the moon loves you..
And how much the stars love you
And the whole universe love you
Happy valentine day

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I believe the pain exploding out of a broken heart is way more intense then the pain resulting from the death of a loved one Ali

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Did you ever fall in love from the first sight?
Yes, when I saw nature, with its majesty and grace.
Setting on its throne, quietly nonetheless powerful..

Didn’t need to impress or show off
It felt so strange, all my guards melted, I felt alive ..

A cloud of peace and comfort rested on my chest..

My senses became alert but harmonized at the same time..

My ego vanished like a drop of water in an ocean..

It was so beautiful..

I felt home

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I miss home

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Whether you are in my life now or not…

It is said that after a long journey of yearning, turmoils and generating a full spectrum of human experience and moving ever closer to expressing more love in the journey to remembering and surrendering to who we truly are, Twins come back together in their last lifetime on the Planet, so that they can ascend together…

I’m working on myself to be receptive to you

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At a social family gathering,
I felt a bit suffocated and out of it…
I didn’t have a car and wearing my formal attire
Nonetheless, I decide to go for a walk around the neighborhood… No destination other than killing the time… I remembered a quiet park nearby
So went there and sat.. Alone .. Nothing on my mind… I looked around.. Emptiness… I thought of how lost my soul is…
How void-full my life seems to be
I took a deep breath
Suddenly with all this calmness and quietness.. A sense of peace downed on my soul and heart…
A voice inside telling me it’s ok to feel like this
Don’t fight it
Pain and searching are part of “to be”
Embrace it
Surrender to it… You will meet other lost souls who will comfort and support you in your journey… I take another deep breath
With smile this time… My phone rings!
I answer
Dad is shouting “where the hell have you been lets go all the family is leaving…”

 

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